My Girlfriend is in love with me…
You’ve gone a long ways in a relationship when you find yourself reading 5 year old journal entries about each other. You know you’ve matured and achieved a lot as a couple when you hear how you had hurt feelings and had insensitively affected the others life.
2003 - Mads and I met. College. UPLB. Humanities. We met and had a falling out. Well, it’s not her fault. It was mine. It was me being a jerk. Me being self centered.
I want to write something. Somehow I can’t find words. Somehow all these memories are things that I want to stay in the past and not be resurrected. May all these bad memories rest in peace. In peace.
On the flip side though, if it weren’t for everything that had happened, we wouldn’t be where we are right now. We just want to see it as lessons learned, as battle scars. Diamonds were made under extreme pressure. The sharpest blades we forged in flames.
These lessons, as they were being learned were to only be looked at one way or the other. Looked at with disdain and bitterness… Or looked at with a smile. We’re looking back with a smile. If only I can give her a hug and hold her hands really tight… If only I can let her feel how much I love her… love her so much.
